Barclay Littlewood

An Insight Into My Life

Preaching reality

Preaching reality. That’s what I try and do.

All over the world, millions if not billions are experiencing God’s love, right here on earth. They are glimpsing eternal heaven within as the live. It doesn’t matter what you or I, or anyone else believes about it. If doesn’t matter whether you have God in your life or not, or whether you think he exists or not.

The experiences of those who benefit from God’s love cannot be denied. The fact they don’t exactly tally with yours is irrelevant. Their experience is evidence all of it’s own.

Those that don’t experience God, how funny it would be if their experiences were denied as imagined!

No, the truth is there are those that do experience God and those that don’t. That’s the only real distinction between anyone, and even that is quite marginal, it’s not a reason for difference or argument. After all, most who want to find God or need God find him, and those that don’t, don’t. It doesn’t make you a better or worse person to have found God, and really has nothing to do with being better than anyone just because you have. All I can say is I’ve never been a great person, but I’m better with God than without, and I think most people would be too, but that’s not to say they aren’t far better people than me already.

Yet all have the potential to experience God, that is key to remember. Anything else anyone tells you is an an absolute lie. That’s because objectively, and scientifically, God’s presence is in all, subtly behind the everyday content of our minds, emotions, experiences, it’s that indefinable that never changes. It doesn’t matter if you agree with that or not, it’s still there. Whether you believe in it or not, still there. And for some reason, once you notice and tune in, it alters the very fabric of your brain to bring peace.

There’s no need to be a better person before you get there, or change in anyway, because it’s right under your nose. A total gift, so wonderfully subtle and easy, unmoved and unaltered by all definitions and the flow of your consciousness, just there, always there, effortlessly. What grace! It is ultimate power, ultimate benevolence, ultimate knowledge. How the things of the world pale in insignificance to it! Find that and it will do the changes for you.

Of course, much explanations of Holy Texts we might not agree with, but the experience of God is absolutely ambivalent to factual accuracy, as is shown by the reality. If I can experience God’s love with a total dedication to factual accuracy, and someone else can do so without, how can one way be delusion and the other not? They are simply different routes to the very same place, a place that is beyond the manifest. My arrogance is to think my way is superior.

What matters is the facts behind the veneer – there is an always present something, a ‘power, constant, undefinable’, unaffected by all experiences and comings and goings in our lives, it is within us all and it brings peace. It washes us clean, cleanses and saves us. Call it God or whatever you like, but it is the eternal and you have a direct access to it.

Again a Christian might not agree all ways point to the truth, a Muslim might not agree, a Buddhist might not agree either, but with respect to the ‘my experience is more valid than yours’ camp, none can bring more evidence of any weight than the other. No religion has monopoly on the truth. I don’t preach beliefs or opinions, I’m only preaching reality.

Not my reality, the cold, hard, objective reality.

Past all the differences there is unity, at the foundation is an experience of God one religion brings which is the same as any other.

My opinions and beliefs count for nothing, all I’m doing is stating the very obvious facts that the reality shows us.

This isn’t about preaching what I believe, it’s about preaching reality, and that’s what I intend to do a whole lot more of.

Spiritual traps – how to avoid them and come closer to God

I’ve done the rounds on the spiritual side of things. I’ve ploughed thousands of hours of work into it all, and I continue to do so, hopefully I can save you some time by sharing my experience of God and his rules.

Here’s what I consider to be some main spiritual traps that can actually keep you from God and his love.

Personally I don’t think it’s a case of agreeing or disagreeing with me, it’s about testing and applying these things to yourself to see if they are true.

In the words of Oscar Wide, “Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth learning, can be taught.”

The objective of any education should be your learning, and often you learn by your experience.

Proverbs 3:5-6 is my favourite Biblical Quote and says it all.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.”

In many cases I feel people need to make the same mistakes and fall into some or all of these spiritual traps in order to go through the learning process and burn off the energy as it where. This helps them gain more awareness of themselves and heighten their submission to God.

As always, remember what I say is always far less important than your own experience.

  1. An over focus on personal development in order to obtain spiritual enlightenment is one of the biggest spiritual traps. You can try and try, you aren’t ever going to be perfect or as loving as God. That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t try and be loving and Godly, just realise for whatever reason human beings are flawed and real love comes from God. Work too much on yourself and it’s a form of self idolisation – that’s why grace exists.
  2. Not seeing our sins or blaming others for our sins. You can fool yourself, or others, but not God.
  3. An over focus on changing your subjective experience to make you more loving before finding God is a spiritual trap. Change your subjective experience as much as you like in order to find God, you’ll only realise the futility of it all.
  4. Making God’s awareness and presence (and later love) something that is not accessible now. God’s presence is accessible now, not when you’ve become some wonderful and perfect person you have in mind. You can test this now. Where you aware of the last sentence and now this one? That’s God’s awareness and presence, not yours. Yet you mistake it to belong to you. It belongs in all people, whatever veils it., it’s there, whatever religion, atheist, anyone.
  5. Mistaking God’s awareness or presence with something personal that is your own. This teaching puts you in the shoes of God, everything is fine ‘because you are aware of it.’ This one needs some deep work in order to realise.
  6. Over intellectualising everything in order to try and ‘get it’ is one of the toughest and most time consuming of the spiritual traps. This gets you idolising the world and knowledge, over your own experience and relationship with God.
  7. Being bothered abut the ego is one of the most common place New Age spiritual traps. Before you knew what ego meant no one had an ego, now you see it everywhere. God loves people with ego and those without. You may find this hard, but he doesn’t. Trying to lose your ego is another way of trying to find God by works and doesn’t work.
  8. Spending hours debating minute details and differences with other people is really one of the spiritual traps that wastes the most time. It’s a form of worshipping the world and knowledge. Instead focus on the core tenements of your approach, finding God within yourself and worshipping him.
  9. That any distinction between good and bad is arbitrary. Not so, the Devil will try and trick you that good and bad are the same thing. This is spiritual nihilism and is destructive.
  10. That God is all things, everything in reality, including you. That all are God. This is wrong and gets you hooked on how you make others feel and how they think about you, as well as your own experience. Fall into this spiritual trap and there is no one or thing to pray to follow their rules, because you are as much God as anyone else. God may be the ultimate source of all things, but all that happens is not from God.
  11. Messing around with the “you” or “I’ in order to remove it and the notions of the world is a spiritual trap. We’ve been created to experience the relative and the absolute. Both exist in harmony, the truth is neither obscures the other and they can be both experienced simultaneously. It’s common upon finding the absolute that is God to try and not experience the relative, yet later you’ll go back to a more dual, normal experience that contains both the relative and the absolute.
  12. Thinking there is nothing to be done. Finding God and immersing in him is incredibly hard work, yet his presence is already with you, focus on that presence, pray, read his word.
  13. Thinking all is as it should be. It’s a comfortable idea, but the world certainly needs help, perhaps just not in the ways you think.
  14. Mistaking your way for the only way. There are many ways to God, everything we say about it is ultimately down to interpretation.
  15. Its a spiritual trap that God is not judgemental. Whilst God’s love is free and accessible, God does judge us all. When we don’t know God, or we act wrongly in his eyes, we’ll be punished accordingly, here on earth.
  16. Talking the talk, but not walking the walk is a spiritual trap. Sure you need knowledge about God, but knowing a treadmill exists doesn’t make you fit. It’s the same with God, using, applying and doing what you know, to live Godly is key and often overlooked.
  17. Trying to manipulate the world to your own ends is a spiritual trap. This will get you idolising the world more than God.
  18. Thinking you can hide things from God – God knows your heart – focus on pleasing him over pleasing yourself and the world.
  19. Being intoxicated by the freedom of God’s love and simply doing as you like, of all the spiritual traps, this can be the most dangerous.
  20. Being overtaken by pride is one of the spiritual traps people often fall into when finding God in their own unique way. Many people have found God before you and will do in the future. God’s love should make you feel special but at the same time humble yourself.
  21. Thinking there’s an end point to this all, like it’s an equation to figure out. There isn’t. Once you find God, the journey continues. It’s all a never ending process to be enjoyed!

Thank you for reading and may God bless you as you avoid these spiritual traps yourself.

God Bless

Barclay Littlewood

Sugar addiction therapist

Just for fun I thought I would see if I can rank first in the world on Google for the term sugar addiction therapist.

No I am not a sugar addiction therapist – but spit that candy out from where it came and don’t despair. I have beaten my own sugar addiction and can help you too, for free. Meaning you don’t have to go and find a real sugar addiction therapist, should such a thing even exist. (And as it doesn’t I am your best bet anyway.)

Before we go on I would like to dedicate this page to my sister and my wife. At least one of whom I am sure is reading now, whilst eating some sugar in some form or another.

Sugar, (by that I mean refined sugar/cane sugar etc.) is at least as addictive as any narcotic drug and almost as harmful. Yep, people that eat sugar are actually, drug addicts. To me seeing a kid eat candy, is like seeing them drink alcohol or smoke a cigarette. Indeed, the effects of sugar are so damaging on human health that I predict within 20 years most major economies in the world will tax sugar at a rate similar to alcohol and tobacco and award subsidises to healthy food producers in return.

We’ve often heard the “sugar is 7 times more addictive” than crack tagline, accurate or not, treatment of sugar addiction is incredibly similar to drug addiction treatment.

You want to approach it from 8 angles. As the world’s leading and only sugar addiction therapist (well hopefully soon anyway according to Google), remember beating your addiction takes time. You can’t cure it in days, we are talking weeks, maybe even months, but sugar addiction is curable!

Here’s my sugar addiction therapist’s 8 ways to cure your addiction – to be used all at once!

  1. Reality therapy – Until you see sugar as a drug, something that can get you hooked at any point, you will likely not give it up. Don’t think it’s a drug? Then just give it up. You can’t can you? You have a problem. Your brain thinks you need it, you are psychologically addicted. And what’s more sugar makes you stupid, causes depression, makes you obese, causes inflammation of the joints, diabetes, and is now linked Alzheimer’s (now also known as Type 3 Diabetes) and a host of other serious health issues.
  2. Emotional therapy – A lot of people eat junk food to feel better about themselves. You need to start feeling better about yourself, of your own accord. Stop beating yourself up for unhealthy eating, for who you are, how you look, or anything else. Be loving and kind to yourself, show a little love to others, and screw what comes back for your self fulfilment and self image. And certainly screw anything from the outside world for feelings of well being, including money, material goods and alcohol.
  3. Spiritual therapy – You eat candy to feel good, there’s no better feeling than God. (Or whatever name us petty little humans seek to give him or her today and then argue and kill each about it.) If you’re a skeptic, then go and read some nuero-theology. You will see the key to it all is in the spiritual exercise. And yes, it’s all scientific. Start meditating, praying, worshipping and even consider joining a religion you like.
  4. Purchasing therapy – Don’t buy candy when you go shopping, if you don’t have it, you can’t eat it. Avoid the candy aisles at your local stores, walk right on by. Don’t even look at the desert menu when you eat out, pretend it doesn’t even exist.
  5. Awareness therapy – Check everything you buy and currently have in your home for sugar, high fructose corn syrup, (or any syrup) honey and cane sugar, you’ll be amazed at what products they hide it, such as BBQ sauce, Almond milk, and “healthy treats”.
  6. Substitution therapy – When you crave sugar, reach for an alternative instead – fruit. A little fruit isn’t so bad for you, and even a lot, is a heck of a lot better than candy.
  7. Gradual reduction therapy – When all the fruit doesn’t help, have a little candy, what’s a little? Less than you usually would have, and less often. I used to allow myself to have candy only on Saturday, and I could have as much as I wanted. In time, I started to not look forward to Saturday’s, that was the beginning of the end.
  8. Physical therapy – Start some exercising, if you are unfit, just begin walking, build up slowly, listen to your body. Now you have an extra interest in avoiding candy, it’s going to add weight and hinder your exercise progress. Begin to eat healthier, eat real food, not man made food stuffs that are killing many in the Western world.

There you have it. I am not a sugar addiction therapist, but, that’s what worked for me.

I am sugar free and feel amazing for it.

No more energy crashes, waking up with a fuzzy head, cravings, or putting on needless weight! Wahoo!

Good luck with your sugar addiction therapy and going clean!

Best & God Bless

Barclay Littlewood – Your Sugar Addiction Therapist For The Day

How do you tell the difference between the Devil and God?

Are you on the right path? Are others? How do you know? How do you handle others who are not, or who are at a crossroads?

The Devil hates, steals, deceives, accuses – God does not. The Devil destroys human beings, God restores them. God speaks truth, unity, love – The Devil does not. God is selfless, the Devil is selfish.

If you experience the grace of God, within, you know without doubt there is a love like no other accessible to all. (See footnotes)

When you know God, you shall also know then, that there is another force at work in this world. This evil force, none of us are immune to. It is one of hedonism, selfishness, greed, hatred, anger, deceit etc. It exists within us all. It has a love for other things, those of the world. It wants to destroy us all – so whilst you may think you win by getting ‘what you want’ – sooner or later – the objective truth of this reality will hit you. I know from my experience as a drug user, bodybuilder, cheater, alcoholic, worshipper of money and so on that those paths lead to nowhere but misery.

To really allow God and yourself to battle that evil force, you first have to see it within. You have to really know objective right from wrong – rather than doing what is “right for you.” And for a definition of what is right… see the top of this post. Then comes the sincere and firm resolve that you will fight the battle, and that you will dedicate yourself to God and his ways. It is a tough long road, but it is far better, far more fulfilling, far more joyful than dancing with the Devil and his temporal and destructive pleasures.

When you encounter this evil outside of you in others, it’s always important to separate that evil force from three things –

  1. Appearances
  2. Your decisions
  3. The human being subjected to it

The Christian/Godly thing to do, for example if you hear of someone who is sleeping rough that attends your Church is to give them a roof. To take someone under your wing. Perhaps you see parts of your old self in them and your past struggles.

They may appear completely Godly, charming, pleasant at first. You make a decision to do the loving thing and let them stay with you.

Yet when you make a decision, you may put yourself, and others at risk, because you may be inviting someone into your life, who struggles greatly with the Devil as well. You may be putting yourself, your family, friends, them and your property at risk.

Despite obvious good qualities, as you get to know them, the Devil’s fruits may come to bear – they may speak a lot about people close to them they have deceived, they may be involved in illicit activities, they may have a drug problem, they may show a disregard for others, for property, for businesses, even little clues that may seem innocuous, like snatching things from others, or not saying thank you for generosity scream out to you. Are you judging them when you see these things? No of course not.

You are being discerning.

This is where point 3) comes in. You don’t confuse the person with their actions, past etc. You know, that the human being, the vessel, is the same as all. They can be filled with God like us all, and they can struggle with the Devil too. No one is above that struggle!

The Devil wants you to hate such a person, turn your back on them, lower them to your judgements. God however wants you to speak truth to them, love them, forgive them, support them and show them a better way. Only this can heal their trauma because of course, always when you see discord on the outside of someone – it comes from some discord inside. And only showing God’s love, can really heal such discord.

However, you have to separate this loving attitude and intention to do God’s work, from your decision making. It might well be best to help, but to do so from afar. You may not need to have them live with you, befriend them, be close to them. You can be just as there for them, in a different capacity. Perhaps just in chance meetings or at Church.

As they stay with you, they may begin to try and deceive you. Should you be surprised? They have deceived others, far closer to them, why would they think twice? To change takes experience, and takes time, and it takes the grace of God.

For example, perhaps they need money for shoes, they create a simple story so you aren’t with them to visit the shop. They artificially inflate the price of the shoes they bought, lying to you about their true value, and spend the rest on drugs. Beyond that, they may too promise to pay you back, it would seem, with no intention of doing so whatsoever.

When you find this out, what can you do? You have to act. To keep someone in your house that will deceive you, is dangerous. When the Devil is in control, God is not. At the same time, it’s back to 3). Be there for them, forgive them, pray for those that wrong you. Once you abuse the trust and love given to you in this life, is it more loving to carry on regardless or show them there are consequence? Don’t be afraid to show people those consequences exist – for their own growth and good. When you show yourself to be deceitful for example – that you lose a footing – you lose trust – you lose special treatment. We all must work for good relationships, with God and each other – they don’t come along for free. Experience is the best teacher, and people only damage those close to them that care for them, because they are so damaged and struggle themselves.

I know this because I am the same and have gone through the same.

And if there are no consequences of your actions, you simply don’t learn from your experience.

Trust your gut feeling, you can “feel” where another human being really is in their spiritual journey. Right away! Make wise decisions, protect yourself from the evil energy that exists in all, whilst doing all you can to pour love people’s way, no matter in what capacity, as landlord, friend, samaritan, or just someone who cares.

Be loving, but we wise, feel the best way to handle things, don’t be impulsive, you don’t always need to act on the first action that comes to mind, sometimes, a slower, more gentle approach is required. And when and if you get it wrong, don’t beat yourself up, you’re only human after all – God often has plans to show you something from a situation that goes way beyond what meets the eye.

Thanks for reading & God Bless


Footnotes –

My way has been through Jesus Christ, those of you who read the website will know that I favour the scientific evidence over Biblical interpretation – that other paths can provide the exact same salvation through the effects on the human vessel of prayer, wisdom, other Holy Books, meditation and so on. We really are clay, our very being can be moulded by God, through processes like brain plasticity for example. (It is my assertion that whole human being is “plastic” and subject to moulding – and as such the Devil hijacks the process through drink, drugs, porn etc. to give temporal pleasure but I digress.)

I am sorry if my multi path assertion annoys you, offends you, or you feel it contravenes God’s word. I am sorry if you think that speaking of such unity is actually divisive, or deceptive. I have nothing but love to answer that, because God has shown me that is the only answer. He has shown me all words – all interpretations – as are they are – but they are non-dependent on his love. The scientific objective evidence (see Neurotheology or trawl my website) – and that is the keyword – “evidence” – is totally contrary to there being one exclusive path. The Bible does have factual inaccuracies – many – the omission of evolution for one. Whether you see them, accept them or not, does not effect your experience or relationship of God however – (again look at the reality everyone) and that is the great dilemma for us as human beings, because we can all, including me, be blinded by our own cleverness, interpretations and knowledge.

The eternal presence, does it belong to me?

The eternal presence within, that which I call God, or Divine Energy, but can go by any name, and certainly does not exclusively belong to you.

You cannot steer it, change it, move it. Of course you can change how you think, what you think, steer your mind and your actions, yet that eternal presence remains always. It can neither fade, increase or decrease.

Our descriptions of it very wildly, at times seemingly in conflict, other times seemingly baffling.

Notice it in your life, and through grace it shall bring you eternal peace, the peace of Holy Spirit or bliss.

It is always there, always watching, it can never fade. As much as you try and find it, it remains. As you name it, talk about it, it still remains.

It is greater than any occurrence in your life, any occurrence in the world.

It is untouched and beyond them all.

It is within all people, within me, as much as it within you. Wether it is unrealised or not, guised under religion or not, it is true unity within all of mankind.

Thank you for reading,

May the eternal presence of God be found within you.

God Bless

The truth is, you inherit a lot in this life you don’t ask for.

Some of it is good, some of it, not so good.

Indeed, some of it can be very bad indeed.

We all pick up habits of thinking and feeling about ourself, and life, and how to interact with the world, from our parents and siblings. Our family situations mould and shape us in our most formative years.

Past selfish acts in my family, from both parents, meant I inherited a lot of pain.


My mistake

But even though I was only 8, it was my mistake.

Mum and Dad could never give me, what they never had.

What I needed, had to be provided by me.

It’s something every child should realise, before they begin a life into a world of madness.

Your parents are ill-equipped to handle another human beings well being, very often, they can’t even handle their own.

I needed my own love, no one else’s. I needed to feel loved, and in the end, only I could provide that.


The Fight

I am not fighting anyone anymore. I am no longer fighting myself.

Now. I am only fighting the pain.

My father left when I was 8 never to return. My mother, I always felt an emotional disconnect from, she was never emotionally warm, but distant. Perhaps she was struggling to get over the divorce, to provide for us, and find love herself.

She was my one source of love, I tried so hard, to make sure I did well.

Somehow, I never could quite seem to earn that love and warmth I craved.

One day, I gave up, and drugs became my love.

As my addiction grew, it too failed to provide that love. It faded and it left even deeper scars.

I became distant to myself, cold to myself, I became angry, bitter.

Success wouldn’t solve it, money wouldn’t solve it, changing my looks and body wouldn’t solve it.

Even God couldn’t directly solve it.


A seed of pain

I did’t ask for that initial seed of that pain sown deep inside my heart and mind. I didn’t deserve it, and certainly, for a long part of my life, I didn’t even know that pain was there.

After that, it took a lot of figuring out how to begin to solve it. The problem was by then, the seed of pain had grown so large. It has become a tyrannous, sprawling, evil weed, intertwined with my very being, my body, mind and soul. It had become me.

Many, have had it a lot worse than me. It gives me great grace to understand, pain is passed on through generations. Like a silent killer. Most people don’t know it’s there, they never face it, and certainly they never cure it.

It goes on and on, passed subliminally from generation to generation, perhaps for centuries or more, until someone breaks the cycle.

That’s the fight for me.

To kill the pain. To break the cycle. To uproot the weed at it’s source – me.

Not only for myself, but should I have kids, that they never have to inherit the pain I inherited.


My power

This fight is to take all power over myself, back within me. To take full power over my relationship with myself, and my relationship with our source.

My neediness, was my undoing. I had thought, incorrectly, that the love I needed was outside of me.

It was within.

A long trail of spiritual seeking began. I devoured book after book of wisdom, I become complex and a serial changer, all for love.

Even the books that erred at truth, forget something so key. Pain is an experience. Only experiencing healing, can reverse it.

Words, mere words, nay mere wisdom, are only 1% of the battle.



Your experience shifts

The rest, the other 99%, is to begin to shift your experience.

You see your experience is plastic. Malleable.

It can be altered, replaced with a new, more joyful, better experience. Meditation, prayer, worship, practising love of oneself, all begin to alter you, second by second, minute by minute, day by day, month by month.

Year by year.

I care for people. But, I realise all people, ultimately are evil, we are all self centred. So quick to turn, so self involved, so negligent of how we effect others.

Now I don’t care what people think about me, I don’t care what they say about me, I don’t care how they view me. I need nothing from them, take or leave me, nothing you can give me, means anything to me. From the little things – don’t say hi, don’t be helpful, push past me – to the big things – forget what I did for you, turn on me, try and threaten me, do as you wish.

I won’t try and change you, convince you, alter you. I don’t need feeding from the outside. I don’t need the nourishment of this world.

Stay as you need to be, it’s your life, and I am focused on mine.


The pain of others

Few people know themselves, thus they cannot begin to even know another.

So many are in so much pain, they take it out on all those closest to them, without even knowing it. They have little time to think about the lives of others.

They are ultimately, a lot less important than you think. They can’t give you what you need, or what you have been searching for. Love them as much you wish, treat them as well as you like, all admirable qualities, just don’t get confused.

Don’t think it will give you anything you really need.

My stability now comes from within. My belief, comes from me. My view of myself comes from me. I know who I am better than you, better than anyone. I don’t need you onboard. I am not looking to complete my puzzle, with missing pieces you never held.

I learned to love myself, be kind to myself, to be my own guru, my own encourager. I learned to boost myself up. To be immensely proud of myself. To fight to get better each day.

I learned to admit my many fears, and face them. To push myself past them and conquer them.

I am bolstered by sound principles and values of love, kindness, tolerance, compassion, and forgiveness. I don’t seek to harm any other human being, physically, emotionally or financially.



I am, one in a million, maybe even more. I am different. I look at life differently, I live life differently, I feel about life differently. I know things others can’t even comprehend, I understand a better way.

I have evolved.

I am ready.

And this is just the beginning.

The Secondary Nature of Self

If you think about all the human evil that’s been done over time, it’s always in the guise of looking after me or my own, over you and yours.

It’s about getting what I want, because I want it or because I think God wants it.

This I call the being immersed in the secondary nature of self.

Maybe its about imposing our ways on each other, our interpretations, because we know better than others. Perhaps it’s about making them be and act like us, or perhaps it’s the never ending search for fulfilment via the world.

Perhaps it’s our adverse reactions to someone and what they’ve said or done.

Inner suffering causes outer suffering – and the source of suffering is all ultimately finally tied to yourself.

That notion that you are the very epitome of this creation means you can only rely on yourself, a sub structure that is not self sufficient.

Some branches of spirituality preach there is no ‘you’. That all are God. This seems so on discovering the absolute source within you, but there is indeed a you, and the source of you. All experience the former, only some the latter.

It is the source of you which is greater.

Call it what you like, God, spirit, Allah.

It is greater than you, more permanent, more prevalent, more knowing, more advanced, more joyful. It is within you, however hidden. You are simply a creation of it.

It maybe a separate source you think of it as, something that was there when the Universe began, or it maybe something that only began to exist when the Universe began.

Whatever your idea about it – it is the source of that.

The more you pass power to God to take yourself out of the equation and immerse in what made you, sustains you, the more your separateness to your source fades.

And the root of all your desires, all your pride, all your vulnerabilities, all your worries, slowly dissolves.

Such joy, right with you always, right under your nose!

You identify what’s within us all, what’s the true source of each and everyone, everything. There all are already loved, in that, there are no real differences, no issues, no problems.

The source is incredibly ambivalent, incredibly care-free, yet in the name of love, it exists, simply it’s love isn’t limited, nor is it’s freedom. People are free to love, to mock, to argue, to hate, to be considerate or otherwise, free to reject God, free to find God, and this is why the source is greater than all else in this world, all that it created.

God’s love is the greatest teacher, God takes you, as you are.

God exists in all, known or unknown.

God so above it all, that these words are simply mere reflections of the power and light within.

So next time its tough, remember that secondary nature of self, and pass it over to God, anything else is back to front and will only bring you suffering as a result.

You may be vulnerable, you may be down, you may be struggling, but what’s connected to inside of you is beyond and above them all.

Shining brightly and joyfully as always.

God Bless


Barclay Littlewood


Why you must forgive others for their sins

Forgiveness works to heal the past. The past is one of the Devil’s main tools against us. He can hold us to the pain of events that have happened 30 seconds, 30 minutes or 30 years earlier. Sometimes the hurt of years ago can be made to seem just like yesterday.

Forgiveness is for the forgiver. That’s why you must forgive others. It takes back control of your heart, mind and future and unshackles you from the past.

The question is not “Why I should forgive them, why do they deserve it?”

The question is really “Why should I not forgive them? Why don’t I deserve it?”

If you can’t forgive others, you really must like punishing yourself.

You see not forgiving someone really often doesn’t matter to the person that did the harm. They may be blissfully unaware of what they did, or busy living their life without a second thought to it. By not forgiving, it’s you that’s still suffering the pain of what occurred. Ultimately forgiveness frees you up from the pain that’s been blocking your love – and allows you to move on. Until that time, the past is going to keep darkening your future. Their may be anger, trust and anxiety issues, and even problems forming relationships with people in a similar role to the person that harmed you before.

We know we should forgive, not only from the Bible and other Holy texts, but also because of our relationship with God. He forgives us, and we know as his child, we should strive to do forgive others in the same way. When we forgive, we take the burden off ourselves and we pass the burden over to God where it belongs and can be properly shouldered.

Others behaviour is between them and God, just as your behaviour is between you and God. So if you refuse to forgive you are basically saying you know better than God and his rules! God will let you have your own way and play at being God for as long as you wish. He’s happy to let you go about holding back forgiveness thinking you are achieving some victory and learn the hard way. We always know trying to be our own God and living by our own rules turns out badly, very badly indeed!

So there might be a million reasons to withhold forgiveness, but there’s really only one reason why you must forgive others – for your own healing.


The Essence of Forgiveness

Forgiveness isn’t just a matter of words and saying “I forgive them.” It’s deeply praying, sincerely forgiving and wishing the wrong doer well. Its being happy that they are happy. It’s asking God to help them and give them the best, praying for them just the same way as you pray for family or a friend, because in the end they are God’s child too.

If you can’t forgive in that way you haven’t forgiven at all. You’ve simply given lip service to the Bible and the concept. For example, if you cannot be in a room with someone and share a few words or jokes, you haven’t really forgiven them. Look to how God forgives us. Does he say “I’ll forgive you but don’t speak to me again.”? Of course not! He loves us still and that’s our goal with all others – his children.

I remember meeting a man from Rwanda once. He told me how almost his entire family was murdered. His wife, brother and 2 children. He was able to forgive the perpetrators as many in Rwanda have done. He was able to meet them forgive, and move onwards. He encouraged the wrong doers to see the Devil had overtaken them and seek forgiveness too from God. Now, because of thousands of stories like his, and thanks to God that country is finally healing from it’s past.

So next time you hear someone saying they can’t forgive, tell them – anything is forgivable.


Don’t just forgive – forgive and educate – let people know what they did wrong

I’ve forgiven some people in my time, all manner of things. In the beginning, it used to be hard to forgive. Then it got easier. But one mistake I made was never telling the person what they’d done wrong and how they had hurt me. I don’t think they ever learned much, indeed I think some people would just see my forgiveness as a let off!

So now I’m sure to let them know. I endeavour to do this in a gentle, truthful and constructive way, because it’s the right thing to do by God and ultimately I believe it will help them.

Of course too, you should explain why you are forgiving them. Your forgiveness can be taken many ways, as a sign of weakness, lack of harm, or apathy to the wrong. So you should highlight the reason you are doing it – because it is what God wants. Hopefully you forgiveness can be a lesson in itself.

Forgiveness also doesn’t mean appeasement. For example God doesn’t appease in our wrong doing. If we do something wrong, he corrects us by punishing to bring him back to his love. Equally, if someone broke into your home, you could forgive them, offering them help coming to God, but still push for them to receive punishment too. All people must learn, there are consequences to their actions and punishment and forgiveness are not two mutually exclusive actions.


Why you must seek forgiveness for your sins

If you don’t come to God and sincerely ask for forgiveness of your sins, then God’s love will always be withheld from you to some degree. The Devil wants you to think your sins are forever. He keeps it that way by telling you that you have no right to be forgiven, that you are not worthy of God’s love, or even that God does not exist. Ironic that is was down to the Devil you fell short in the first place! The whole World might be condemning you, but what matters is God’s forgiveness only.

God frowns upon a proud person. He sees everything you do – his presence is always there – so you can kid yourself you did no wrong – but you can’t kid God!

So humble yourself and admit you were wrong, promise to be better and then move on. Each time you do this it’s a victory for God and a defeat for the Devil!

Thanks for reading about why you must forgive others and seek forgiveness of your own sins, I really hope it helps you to heal the past in your own life.

God Bless

Barclay Littlewood